Start With Yourself

When i was young and free my imagination had no limits,
I dreamt of changing the world,
As i grew older and wiser,
I discovered the world would not change,
So I shortened my sights somewhat,
And decide to change only my country,
But it,too,seemed immovable.

As I grew into my twilight years,
In one desperate attempt,
I settled for changing only my family, those closest to me,
But alas, they would have none of it,

And now as I lie on my deathbed,
I suddenly realize,
If only I have changed myself first,
Then by example I would change my family,
From their inspiration and encouragement,
I would have been able to better my country and,
Who knows,
I may have even changed the world...

Welcome to the first post in my spick and span new blog.. I suppose i might have to introduce myself.. for the uninitiated ( i mean those who don't know me already) My name is Mohd. Faisal Jaffar.. Yes, i'm a muslim, and no, i'm not a terrorist.. I hail from bright, sunny Malaysia, and where am i do you ask? i essentially live anywhere my life choices, and life opportunities take me.. :) Essentially, that's what i am.. Fate walker..

Well, onward to the cooler stuff.. just recently i've landed myself in a quite a sticky situation.. Just one of those days where you'd probably ask where your life is actually heading.. For once i feel it does have a direction.. Although you're somewhat back to square one, with no job, no money and the whole enchilada when you've spent your life out of a job for too long.. But as they say i guess.. at least you have your health.. hmm...a devoted girlfriend maybe, and probably an army of friends you can fall back on when things get a bit blue.. well.. maybe not the last part, but i guess you'll get the drift.. Come to think of it again, sitting around all alone in a crummy apartment in sungai buloh, with home 200 miles away doesn't make the picture any prettier.. it does things to you.. :P

And so now i'm here, trying to scratch a future for myself, and maybe, if god permits, my family.. It does feel kinds dodgy sometimes, considering how times have changed and how far i find myself gone.. Seems like i had a lot to pay for..hmph.. Not a lot of time to pay for it tho..

Well.. onward to a new topic.. Starting this month i suppose i'm no longer a lone ranger.. hehehe! Officially it states that i am now no longer single.. and available.. huhu! The name of the lucky candidate is Lyn, and i should say that she is absolutely gorgeous, with a free spirit i have yet to match. Kinda good, really.. it's not everyday you find someone you absolutely love and is independent enough to handle her own life with total ease.. At times i do feel like "whoa! someone's trying to bite me!" But then again.. i prefer things to be that way.. and honestly, i really have a good feeling about her.. like she's just the thing i needed to get myself back in high gear again.. I love her.. :D

Oh well.. enough of my rantings for now.. maybe i'll come back later when i have the time.. Now.. for that job...